I can’t believe I haven’t posted here for a year, a whole year.
It’s weird that I’ve gotten the urge to post again at around the same time. The time of the year when the weather gets hot, things slow down, people get back into the grooves of their lives or commitments — and I feel like I’m left here standing wondering where my own commitments, passions, and responsibilities lie.
Since the year has passed, some things have changed, yet some things are completely the same. I still haven’t been able to land a full time job out of college (that is remotely related to my major). I am still living at home after I moved back since graduation. I still have the same boyfriend. He is still in Hawaii for school. And, yes, the distance still hurts the same. The same, in the way that you never get used to being away from someone you care about for more than 6 months at a time.
Different, however, in the sense that the yearning is familiar, late night phone calls based on a 3hr time difference are welcome and the urge for the next 3yrs to pass quickly remains.
My family is still the same. My parents are still getting older, as we all are. My Dad seems more cynical and overbearing than ever — but maybe that’s how it’s always been and it’s only amplified now that I’m living at home. My Mom is the same happy, positive, encouraging person that she always was. And my younger brother is just as he’s alwayys been– flat, yet, consistent and unarming.
Interestingly enough, my health is better than it’s ever been. And I wonder why. Maybe because I have the time now to pay attention to it, or maybe because I’m getting older and the fear of not being physically ready for certain things in life is more prominent.
I wish I had some lovely pictures to provide you with, but text will have to do. I’ll eventually have some, though — we have an iPad lying around, and I seem to be the only one interested in actually using it.
Have a lovely weekend